Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Vinyl


Wrote this one a couple months ago. Apparently I find value in writing short prose pieces. Meaning in the temporary and fractured thoughts and all that. So it goes:

  
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Life is like vinyl records. You are born already with so few caring about your existence. But it is relevant to the few who matter. As life goes on, there are more pops and hisses in your life, cracks and chips, but there is still a group of dedicated people to you, who want to maintain your longevity. Despite all the cracks, you still have your groove. The majority of the world doesn’t care about you, but it is because they are impatient; they are not clever enough to see your side B. To be sure, how well you perform depends on the care of others. Sometimes you get stacked improperly, with the weight of other records above you. It wasn’t your fault but it is your fate. If the needle isn’t properly maintained, you will wear out sooner than you should have. Change your needles, change your minds. Shop local and buy records.

Nueva Vida

A few weeks ago I created a Tumblr account. Already writing for blogs under Blogger and Wordpress, figured I might as well bow to the triumvirate. When I went to post my first piece, I realized it was fucking impossible (or unjustifiably confusing) to justify text and center photos. HTML wasn't updating, and this shit is just too easy in Blogger. Although Tumblr makes it easier to post to other social network sites, I must succumb to the ease of what I know and delay any new beginnings. I figured a new site would help my write more, that I would find inspiration in tabula rasa. Alas, I'm back here. So let's do this.

Met Erin Phillips, general manager of the Aviary last night at the Map Room. She was super drunk and thought we (Craig and Andy) were trying to get beef on her to blog about. I don't really know much about the joint, but want to check it out at some point. Just posting because Erin kept saying we would blog shit about her. Here's hoping I can still get a res there.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Book Report: Patti Smith - Just Kids



Whenever I read anything even remotely relating to the New York punk scene in the 70s, I get an immediate rush of inspiration. It’s not even always to create something or be proactive, but just to read about people’s lives in the time is so fascinating. I feel truly lucky to be living in a time of such proximity so as to be able to learn about such an explosive era of modern culture. And even though I own no albums by Patti Smith, nor have beyond a vague introduction to Robert Mapplethorpe’s photography, the former’s account of their relationship is simply just too interesting to put down. CBGB’s is nothing more than a hiccup in this book, a break from digesting their dynamic time together. In an oddly voyeuristic stance, I yearned to feel as close to anyone as they did to each other. The key component of this work is the brilliance of Smith’s writing. And despite perhaps an overuse of the word ‘talisman’ (although overused for a reason), I hanged on every word as poor Robert hung on to every last blood cell.


Monday, December 13, 2010

Texts From Last Night

From: Zaire Uh F

Fr 1:25 AM - Hey i called manger of massgot
Fr 1:28 AM - Marriott and said dick give me a room. Also lets hang out this week

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Book Report: Vladamir Nabokov - Lolita

The amazing thing about literature is the ability to push the reader towards the realm of discomfort and disdain while still retaining the essential elements of great writing. Henry Miller is one author that comes to mind immediately. I could never defend the actions of the misogynistic, anti-Semitic protagonists of the Tropic duo, but goddamn was the writing just so perfect in those novels. Great passages would turn into pages of every single word having its specific purpose, every article and seemingly secondary adjective contributing as much as the more prominent nouns and pronouns. The plots could be boiled down to Miller’s own take on two cities (New York and Paris) and his personal exploits within, without much central conflict, rising or falling actions. With a rather trivial storyline, it is too tempting to ask “What is the point of these novels?” And going further, “Is this pornographic or literary or both? Is there a place for pornography in literature?” In an afterword to Lolita, Nabokov takes initiative in answering the former: “I happen to be the kind of author who in starting to work on a book has no other purpose than to get rid of that book.” He recognizes that he is less of a conscious ego declaring himself as writer, more of a fortuitous vehicle for a book that has to be written (a great essay on this concept can be found here).

I am not here to set about answering these questions, as that would take an entirely more formal essay that I don’t think the minimal readership of this one warrants the time it would take to fully deconstruct. Rather, I am more interested in exploring the conflict between author and reader when confronted with a novel such as this. Early on, when our mainman Humbert Humbert is expressing the agony inflicted by his desire to have his future step-daughter Delores Haze, you really can’t feel any sympathy. We already know that he is giving a testimony before a jury, that he is a murderer and a pedophile. And yet, the expression of this pain almost wins the reader over. And when his Lolita eventually deserts him, his rage and murderous contempt is almost justifiable. It’s this discomfort as a reader that draws me in so much. Can I really acquit a pedophile of his crimes if he were to repudiate them and serve his time? Moreover, for a pedophile, Humbert is quite the charmer and is never vulgar. And here I exist in the world, the mouth of a sailor, and although understanding of references to Hegel and Schlegel, have never taken the time to familiarize myself with them the way this old European corrupting young America (or vice versa) has.

Away from the novel’s content and onto the form, it would be hard to guess that English was Nabokov’s second language. He developed quite the masterful subtleties and extensive vocabulary to create such phrases as “a pharisaic parody of privacy” and “burning with desire and dyspepsia.” He is able to eloquently articulate his character’s intellectual depth: “We live not only in a world of thoughts, but also in a world of things. Words without experience are meaningless.” And: “A change of environment is the traditional fallacy upon which doomed loves, and lungs, rely.” Whether or not it is Nabokov that actually believes this is not what is important, but rather as he puts it, that he needs to get rid of these ideas that bubble and fester inside of him.

Ultimately, the fate of H.H. has to be doomed. Lolita will not stay a nymphet forever. Even had she never ran away, the relationship would be strained over time regardless. He even begins to notice it himself, although even when he tracks her down years after she leaves him, he still attempts to convince her to leave her husband and come back to him. Can love that strong exist? His desire for her was mostly fueled by her youthful features and he used to consider the high school and college aged girls too old for his type. Yet when she enters this stage of life, he still has those feelings. And what could it be in him that develops these feelings? Was it the episode that he describes at a young age of his first relationship as a pre-teen? Could his view of love never mature even as his body did because of that? And these questions continue to exist today, as there is more pressure on the youth to become sexualized younger and younger (tangent: flipping through, I just found another great combination of words: “the most auburn and russet, the most mythopoeic nymphet in October’s orchard-haze.”) A good novel is often characterized as being timeless, a trait defined by its ability to remain relevant over time and raise questions and promote discussion over time. This is no doubt achieved in Lolita in not only its suggestive content but the experimental form as well. Never dense, but enough of a struggle to maintain worthwhileness, it is no wonder the book is considered a masterpiece.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Why.



via gorilla vs. bear

David Sedaris - Naked

Why did I wait so long to read this book? Been on my list for years, finally decided to forego my usual desires to read 40s/50s Euro lit and delve into some contemporary memoirs. Rather than giving A-B-C event timelines, Sedaris focuses on specific events in his life and elaborates to the fullest extent on each one. Despite a brief internet search, I’m still unsure as to the actual validity of these stories, but as Tim O’Brien was the one who got me into literature, answering that question is the low man on this totem pole. Considering the imagination of Sedaris, it is not important if these are actual events. The meaning lies in digging out every piece of dark humor possible, from deceiving the world with a quadriplegic to getting high with his siblings while their mother sits alone on the cusp of death. The callousness of the protagonist can only be conveyed in a book titled Naked. No, his mother wasn’t the sweetest, but he recognizes his own naivety about his cold emotions without changing them. And he shares them. He lets us put on his X-ray specs by putting these words on pages between the covers. The back and forth between imagination (Chipped Beef) and straightforwardness (I Like Guys) creates a surreal landscape, populated by vulgar and awful people (C.O.G., Something for Everyone).

Of course, the point would be missed if we were to pass any judgment on these characters. What this book does is allow us to think of ourselves naked, to bring to our conscious the things we’re afraid to admit to anyone but ourselves. And this is where the book becomes most meaningful to me. I’ve become increasingly aware that I will never be a true writer. Writing involves such a strong foundation of honesty that I will never be able to achieve. As an internalizer, it’s difficult for me to express true feelings to anyone else and (amazingly) this difficulty is true for print as well. While I find no difficulty expressing my opinions on the work of others, why this book is great or why that band sucks or why I have so little interest in a lot of movies everyone clamors for, I view what I feel as so meaningless as to not even look at the map of that train line. And perhaps this is only a continuation of a path I’ve been following since high school, the rationalist vs. the empiricist, the big-picture of the world and the small timeframe that my life takes up. Either way, I will never write a Naked. I may write Winter Clothing, in which I continue to hide by never putting my Self out there. Playing it safe is dangerous territory for an aspiring writer. Alas, don’t expect me to quit my job and go play in the street.

Music: Braids – Set Pieces EP, Radar Eyes – S/T